The hearth of Dust

I take, I deny, Smile and cry.
Emptiness consumes me so now im filled, unleashing my nonexistence on the world watching while it hurts, I stand motionless, emotionless.
I want happiness yet it seems happiness does not need me, so I embrace sadness in it i find happiness, i no longer care, no need for pray, all that utters from my mouth is swear.
My heart's hearth has dwindled with all the love it cannot be re-kindled. I dont know, im not sure, is there a cure i dont care im happy here.
There's honesty in my lies, smiles in my cries, answers in my whys?
I'm alone, substance less no marrow in my bones my spirit is lost, my life is my soul but i have no soul so am i dead.
Theres a constant pain in my head, I feel it now its reaching into my eyes I cant see now i'm deaf, I dont trust you, so you cant lead me, leave me be!
My heart is reaching out but I cant grab its hand, my mind is holding me back.
Fear eats at me but my bravery let it has its full until I'm no more, no more than just dust.

I'm happy now.

Mind's Faineance

We smile, we cry, we live, we die.

For an ounce of happniess our entire lives we strive

Our ultimate dream is not to dream, but to live not survive.

Everyone wants to stay alive, people who wish not to are the persons whose dreams have died.

Forever is not promised to imperfect men but the few who live their lives seeking prefection.

So what hope lies for the masses who believe in reality than concept of fantasies?

Who really then is happy?

If Faith has to be tested and the faithless are detested.

An Abstract Poem

Sometimes the many distratcions of life can make one lose focus of whats really imporatant.

We spend over days trying to get by, not enjoying every moment as they go by.

My heart has grown callous from being untouched that I forgot how to cry, I wonder If I died how many would cry.

People have become untrustworthy so its only second nature to lie.

Faith has now become a conversational piece for the intellects, the poor has loss hope. Single mothers and the fatherless boy dont know to cope, they find comfort in the ephoria of coke.

What is the purpose of like many have asked? Yet if told many arent willing to take on the task.
Everyone I know is wearing a mask, made of what they want to be, so when they look in the mirror that is what they see.

What they are is hidden because even the most beautiful person thinks they are dummy and smartest believes he's a ugly.

I'm tired, I tried! For perfection I've strived, yet I've lied, because behind the excuse of imperfection I hide.

To be accepted by peers have brought many tears, however many prefer dehydration than separation, i guess us being one would make a better a nation.

After all whats the benefit of being your man?

Corel....

I've recently stumbled upon on long last hobby and tho my skills at it arent really impressive I'm determined to master it within the next couple weeks.

Corel Paint Shop Pro

Photo EDiting

Im so serious about it, I've dedicated more time to it than ORGANIc Chemistry, which I must add is the worst subject known to Mauricekind...........

Pretty Sad for chem major :-(

At this point in my life I've decided staying home all day and stay up all night watching TV shows online, chatting to "jerks" and flirting with freshman girls online are the most imporatnt things.

YEP! I know I've become quite complacent with no hope of ever regaining focused.....

I suffer from chronic fatigue and lethargy......

I wish life wasnt so demanding...........

After all the purpose of life is Eat, sleep and fuck (reproduce) and that my friend is what my goal is....................

Satruday Morining

Got up....had some cereal from two nights ago......

Hit tha bath room let loose some orange juice......

washed my face and then hit tha sack.......

Put on my favorite playlist...

grab a pen and paper and started writing some peotry....